My Blog is Dying T_T

am really busy with study since oct
there's a lot to keep up
uncertainties, quizzes, mid terms, assignments
this is considered the worst semester i ever had

i've been staying in the university library whenever i can
cause of the freaking stupid book that i can only borrow for 2 hours
and to access papers from IEEE, ACM, etc for assignment
also spending some time in the small gym with lot of people

i'm supposed to do research on my future plan
working... master degree... location and so on
but i'm so busy till i don't really have the chance to do so
my future is partially RUINED T_T

i don't wanna spend more time on testing job
i just wanna get some work i like
but i'm not sure what do i like yet
so therey's a lot i need to find out

then there's still leo's club events to attend
the main priority is the camp
other than that...
i'm holding them for a while

my fate from fortune teller?

This photo reminds me of something

it said that... Capricorn : Boss of Mafia

my mom used to told me that...

when i was a kid

a fortune teller used to told her that

if i be a "good boy" while growing

i can be a talented person

if i don't behave while growing

i'll be a mafia boss

but then it's not bad to be a mafia boss right

can earn a lot of money

and

do whatever you like

LOL

Self learning vs Extra courses

when you guys wanna learn something
it's really common for people to learn from youtube

yes
for something you can really do it this way
but i think it doesn't really work for me
as spoon feed is always better

for language
do you really get the correct way in pronunciation?
are you sure the way you pronounce is correct?
and how about some special cases?

then sports
there's something you really did it
but is that the correct way of doing it?
if not, where's the mistake?
and how to correct them?
after you've corrected yourself
are you sure that they're perfect?

what i personally think is that
if you are going to learn something new
it's always better to get a coach or tutor to guide you
that's how you're going to identify your mistake

self learning without any guidance won't work for me
i will lose my motivation on the thing i wanna learn
and you won't know how good you are too
so i prefer attending some formal lesson instead of self learning

No Study Life

It's been almost 6 months+ i didn't go for class already
back to school again for my final semester in bachelor degree
been through working life for 3 months-
and now i've lost myself in study

been to almost 1st week of classes
i am totally lost and not sure what are the lecturers talking about
a lot of terms been kept in my brain deep deep inside
i've heard those stuff before but forgot what are they for...

i've been expected to have a awesome final semester but...
it turned out to be boring and lost in class for the 1st week
maybe it's because there are quite a number of stuffs i need to handle
and maybe lack of alcohol for weeks >.<

i went to gym again
and to the library to read for class (it's been ages)
since i'm so lost
hope that everything will be alright soon

I really hope that i can get 4.0 this semester
to raise my cgpa
even 3.99 can't raise my cgpa (i've counted again and again)
really need to work hard for this

another new blog (coming soon)

i'm going to start any new blog
but that blog will be kept private
or maybe can be viewed by specific people only
this blog will only become public for either reason
1) I've succeeded my mission (after 6 months later)
2) I've quitted my mission (anytime within 6 months)

for this...
actually there's only 1 friend of mine know it
+ my sister (i told them)
+ a friend (who know it coincidently)
since i forgot to tell him to keep it a secret
so eventually he spread it out the next day LOL
(please DON'T REVEAL yourself in my blog, so as the rest)
even my parents know nothing about this

i'm just wanna make it a surprise if i success
else just keep it as a experience for you and me

this is a new journey that i'm trying to walk
i'm trying to create my own product from it
and of course make money from it (if i can)

so let it stays as a secret for you guys at the moment
some of you might think that
just don't write anything in this post since it's a secret LOL

Searching my path to build my journey

it's so nice to be a kid
there's nothing we need to decide as there's only one way to go
as i'm going to college
it's my 1st time to decide what to study
from Medicine -> E&E Engineering -> Computer Science
and i'm on the path of computer science for 3 years

just to let you know that
i'm in computer science not because it's my favorite nor hobby
it's just that i'm considered good at it
somehow i can understand what i studied easily
and this is where i can make money from

since internship
i've been wonder
where should i pursue
the way i can proceed is too wide
but then i may choose not to continue what i studied
now, i'm still not sure on what i really want
i'm trying to find it but i don't know how
is there a way for this except testing on everything?

btw...
i've been learning dancing as hobby
and i stopped dancing since i sprained my ankle
i'm sure that my ankle and weak now
so i'm going for an alternative if i cannot dance already
will let everybody know after i reached certain level
(give me 3 months)

my funny mother

just now when having brunch with my mother
suddenly my mom said

i have to remember
i need to take care of them when they're old
i thought she wanna remind me of what i forgot
LOL

then she said
it's hard to get parents that are good like them
(self praising)
she tell me to ask my friends whether are their parents this good
LOL
i really agree that they are really GORGEOUS